The Silver Lining of 4

She just had to wear her pearls to her game.

 

 

I have no idea where she got this idea from since I only have one necklace I ever wear. The rest of my small jewelry collection might make an appearance around the holidays, that's it. If you need any costume jewelry, hit up grandmothers and great grandmothers, they are a gold mine in toys!

I'm in the middle of making dinner and Lemur runs up to me, paper in hand with scribbles all over it. "It's for you mama, 'Dear mama, You always make birthday cakes and fries and you are very good at it.' The end."

Another evening she writes me a card - "Mama, I love you very much." "Thank you sweetie!" She takes the card back and hands it to daddy - "Daddy, I love you very much."

I felt bad dogging on her in one of my posts the other day. Four isn't that bad. It's just rough, but along with those moments you want to pull your hair out there are still sweet moments that are worth remembering. I have a goal to start a journal of the sweet things the girls do. My great great grandmother had a journal of her children. Like most things we plan to do there are a lot of entries in the first few weeks, then it tapers off. Maybe that will be my new year's resolution. I hope I can stick to it. I think it will help when behavior gets rough to flip through and read the sweet memories.

Along the same lines I read this article worth thinking about. One of my friends put a more personal note on this when she shared it on facebook. She used to do grief counseling with children. She said the main thing she would hear from children with deceased mothers was there were so few pictures of them. It addresses something I need to come to terms with. I have been avoiding the camera all year, gaining 50 lbs does that to you, but I need to suck it up and smile instead.

This is one of the pics Jennie snapped while I wasn't paying attention. It is the only pic I have from the past year (literally an entire 365+ days) that isn't my bobbing head hiding behind relatives or kids. She even tried to get me into a couple of pics and I refused. Something I will be working on going forward. In the same way I want to remember good times about my littles before they grow up I want them to also have reminders for good memories of me.